Me + Boys = Problems

Me + Boys = Problems

  This time why me and Michael are not talking we are still together though is my fault. I did some things that were extremely stupid and I regret 100%. So I am gonna tell you guys what happened right now so read below.

  Well there was this boy named Hayden. Really sweet white kid. He started my friend. Then best friend as the days progressed. And then he came over to help me with an assignment I had to for my spanish class it was a project partner assignment. And during the assignment we stopped for a break and we went to Circle K. My cousin Juan watched Briana for me. Well we went to Circle K for snacks and went home ate. We fed each other pretzels and stuff. Then we kissed. And things led to another and then we had sex. Which I regret. I am not gonna say if it was good or not or better then Michael cause that doesn't matter. Well he found out cause my cousin has a big mouth and told her friend which happened to be Michael's really good friend over at Independence Highschool. Well Mariah which is her name told Mcihael and Michael asked me about it. I didn't tell him about the the sex I told him about the kiss. I feel really bad. Cause I know he would never cheat on me with anybody but I guess I was caught in the moment.

  I slept with Hayden. And he was my undercover boyfriend for like 3 days. Then I broke up with him cause it wasn't right. I told him I loved Michael. He agreed to still be friends with me to just stay pretty distant. Hayden apolgized to me and Micahel, Michael forgave him but not me. He was really mad at me and still is really mad at me. We haven't talked for a while. And since then which was about April 2nd. Michael doesn't read this, but if he finds out about sex and the dating I don't know he he will take it cause um yeah he gets mad easily. We texted yesterday but it was about Briana. I asked him if he wanted to talk about Hayden he just read it and didn't reply. Since the incident me and Hayden aren't allowed alone according to my cousin. 

   I regret this the most because I am keeping a big secret from my boyfriend of 3 years which is horrible. A big fat lie! And I am ruining the life of my daughter with this big huge mistake. But yes it was a stuoid mistake that didn't mean anything to me or Hayden we talked about it and it was a one night stand and it is over. I love Michael! Well I am gonna go.