Happy New Year

Happy New Year To Ya'll 

    Happy new year and I have so much news. I have been out of commission for so long because I am juggling school, job, relationship, kid(s) and family. 

     

    So as we all know me and Michael did have another baby girl and her name is Daizie Lisette Delgado. She is so amazing and I love her to death. She is the sweetest little thing ever. Her birth date is Feb 14th. She came 5 days over due but I still love her. I honestly would enjoy doing the whole pregnancy again. There is nothing more I love more then having my own kids. 

    So I am not going to put pictures up because she is so small and is only 2 months and Michael doesn't really want her up on the internet like how Briana was. But Daizie and Briana get along so well; Briana takes such good care of her sister and my family takes care of her and supports me so much.

   As of Feb 27th I am single, I am independent I am living on my own with my two girls. I am enjoying every moment of it. I think this time our break up is permanent, I mean of course Michael is always gonna be a huge part of my life but it is what it is. I have bigger fish to fry. He was of course to no surprise lowkey seeing and sleeping with Jacklyn on the low. And I had enough. You made a promise and you broke it and your a liar and a cheater and can't even commit to your own family and to be quite honest we don't need him around, I really did want my daughters to grow up with their dad and both parents together but I am not gonna force him to be committed to me. He hasn't come to see the girls since Daizie has been born because the day after his child was born he got caught with Jacklyn by her dad doing some things which I prefer to keep quite personal and things escalated and the authorities were called and now they are both on probation with an ankle bracelet etc. and he refuses to stop smoking and he continues to fail his drug tests and continue to go in and out of jail and bitch and complain when he can't see his kids and I don't care because you have the choice to change and you choose to continue to make bad decisions all for the girls you are dating and it is pathetic to me and he knows how I feel about it. He gets mad at me for not wanting him to see the girls and my thing is at such a young age I don't want to put my children through that or in that environment. At this point I am fed up with Michael and his childish tactics it is time to grow up and be the man your mom raised you to be. And sometime the drugs the alcohol is gonna have to end. I am fed up because it's time to grow up and it is stressful and overwhelming and it's time for me to make a change and do something good for myself and my kids. It's time to go into mommy mode and do what's right only for my girls not me. So with that being said I cut off Michael until he wants to change and he knows that. So we will see what is more important to Michael his kids or his girlfriend and we will go from there. 

    I am however talking to this boy who's name is Devontay or Vontay for short and he knows how to treat a woman, he has class and respect he sees everything from a brighter perspective and understands everyone was brought up was different way and sees the different walks of life we come from and he makes me happy. He helps take care of Briana and Daizie and they love him and whoever they love I love. i could never put my girls in a situation they don't feel comfortable in. At this point I just feel like I wanna build chemistry with Vontay because I love his energy he just brings me up when I am down and helps me through everything all the time. I just wanna see where it goes lowkey. I have known Devontay for a few years about 3 but we never talked as heavily as we do now. And I am glad we are getting closer. I HAVE NOT been sexually active with Devontay and he has never even asked me to be and I respect that by sexually active I mean kissing touching holding hands nothing at all I give him mad props. Much respect for you. He has dropped the L word a few times and I would say it back because i genuinely do love him and care for him and wanna see where it goes but I don't wanna move to quickly because of what happened with Hayden. Devontay does respect my space and family and my mother and stepfather everybody loves hi he fits right in with my family he is comfortable and I hope to maybe build a future with him and if not relationship wise then a good friendship anything positive that come out of whatever this is that we have. He is just really good energy and people. I just like his company.

    As for me I am doing good I had a great Christmas and numerous holidays I celebrated. I do speak with my real dad from time to time nothing passionate and I don't really wanna move it forward past "I'm doing great" and "How are you" because he is a loser and he has let me down so many times and I'm over it. I haven't really talked to Cisly or any of my friends just because I am doing online school and I don't really have time to be BFF's with anybody because I have things bigger then me to deal with. For the whole Michael situation I'm over that as well like I will see him when I see him whether that's at a grocery store or wherever because I am not going to continue to go out of my way and you just BS your way through life. You have to show me you care. However with Hayden I mean I don't really talk to him to often because he is in a relationship with a new girl and I don't wanna homewreck that and because she is pregnant with his kid and I can only be happy it wasn't/isn't me this time the talk of Westview High School. 

   But pretty much that's it. I do like to keep you guys updated and check in from time to time just because I know you guys truly support me and genuinely do care about me and I don't wanna just leave you hanging because I know how it feels to be left hanging and it hurts and it sucks. But I do answer all emails to provide support for any and everybody going through a tough time. Hit me up whenever don't you dare ever be scared. Once again I love you guys so much and just continue to do you and don't let anybody throw shade over your shine and be rainstorm on your parade because at the end of the day all you have is you and you just have to be a better example to the world and that's what you guys most definitely help me do and I can only appreciate that and love you guys for it. For my supporters from when I wasn't as comfortable opening up and I just started this blog as a way to express myself not knowing anybody would see it and actually email me and encourage me I love you guys soooo sooooo soooo much. Besitos to you! For my new supporters I love you guys so much to and I hope you get comfortable with me. 

   If I am M.I.A I am sorry I have alot on my plate. And I will check in as much as possible and keep updates with pictures etc. And I hope to talk to ya'll soon and you guys are most definitely in for a few more treats and surprises I can feel it in my core I love you.

I Am Only Having One!!

I'm Having One Baby!

    So recently I posted a writing about how I am having twins. Which changed cause I looked the ultrasound picture and it was NOT my name on it. I actually took a picture of it to post on facebook, but it said Eliana Ruiz. Not Hailee Barrera. 

   So I took it back to the OBGYN Office and they gave me ultrasound the correct one, and I met Eliana she is very sweet. I will put that in another paragraph. I am only having one baby which will be my second child. I am having a little girl again. Daizie Lisette Delgado. 

  I am so blessed to be almost 4 years strong with amazing boyfriend who's birthday is coming up December 27th. I am excited for that. I am blessed to be a mommy to the lovely baby Bri. I am blessed to be a soon to be mommy to Daizie Lisette. 

  So before I get into the Eliana story I will be M.I.A for a little while. I will be preparing for Daizie's homecoming. I am really happy to say I have made it almost 2 years now as a mom. I am happy to be Briana and Daizie's mom and raise them. I love Briana so much <3 and I already fell in love with Daizie the minute I found out she was mines <3 and the minute I told Michael he was happy to. My mom and my my half sister Marcielle and my step-dad are happy too. I love all my family. 

  So Eliana is so sweet. She is 15. She is so young. She did make bad choices like me but we are due around the same time. I plan to mentor her because these her first kids and she can't live with her parents anymore, she can only live with her boyfriend's uncle. He is the only one who will let her stay. Her boyfriend broke up with her after almost 5 years of dating. Since fifth grade they have been dating. (She wants me to tell the story by the way). He really only wanted sex from her of course when he found out what it was. They started having sex around the time she turned 13. She didn't get pregnant the first few times. Now she is pregnant and he doesn't want her. He doesn't want to be with her anymore. He doesn't want to be a part of the life of his kids. Which are going to be named Cecilia and Jacob. So she stays with his uncle who will help her take care the babies. Cecilia is one of my few friends I have now, I plan to spend time with her. That's a summary of Eliana really.

My Baby On The Way

My Baby Is A....

   So as we all know Hailee is pregnant again.. third person. And I have been pregnant for a few months now. That Hayden stuff and Michael stuff way back in May. I have an online diary I write in, so I copy and paste and modify it to make sense. But I am 4 months now coming August 26th. I am barely showing. And they did tell me what I am having.

    

  Before I burst that question. I did tell my mom and stepdad. They were a little disappointed in my decisions.. But they said they know I am a very good mother and I can handle it but it will be harder with two kids in the house. I am not complaining though.

  I did celebrate my 17th birthday. Which was September 12. We did have a party. Most of my friends came. It was fun lots of balloons and cakes. I had a blast so did Baby B. She is happy to be a big sister. And her birthday is coming up soon yay November 1st. 

  But my new baby is going to be a lovely bundle named Daizie Lisette Delgado and Michael Anthony Delgado III . Their expected date is February 9th. I wish February would come faster I just wanna hold them and see them I want to see her. Michael is excited to have a son. So I will be having three kids. 

  My mom knows it will be tough for twins and Briana. Luckily there are two parents and Briana is pretty fluent in spanish and english. Listens to everybody well. And is really happy to have people to play with she knows she can't be an attention whore anymore. 

  I am graduating in December. I have 35 credits from all the Dual Enrollment and the online classes, extra cirricular and stuff. I still am working my 3 jobs trying to get as much money as possible. And Michael is going to highschool and working 3 jobs plus the child support.

  Just thought you guys should know what I am having so if I am M.I.A now just know there is a reason because, I will be having and preparing for 3 children making adjustments to life.

   

Sooo Hello

Greetings Mi Amors,

 Basically me and Michael did get back together and I haven't been online because, school starts soon on Monday and also because I am pregnant... again. With Michael's kid again. I don't really know what I am gonna tell my friends and my mom when she gets back from Puerto Rico.

  I really know I am gonna get picked on, because I got picked on when I was pregnant with Briana. I really do hope hope this baby is a girl but Michel swears it is gonna be a boy. I know I am pregnant cause I am late on my period, and I did take 3 pregnancy tests, they are all the same. Michael has my back on this and admitted to not putting a condom on so yeah we are sure it is his cause Hayden and I ALWAYS were protected. 

  I am not embarrassed to be pregnant I am happy very happy. But I know my mom is gonna give me shit about it. I am back on track because I took summer classes and I am a Junior again and I am on track to graduate early yay me. This year I could graduate with the 2015 Seniors instead of the 2016 class. I am excited because I will have my baby hopefully before graduation. Or I just won't walk. I really do want to. 

  But if it's a girl we plan to name her either Daizie Lisette Delgado, or Callista Lisette Delgado. And if it's a boy Michael Anthony Delgado III or Francisco Anthony Delgado.
So we are really excited. I would be excited for either. But I want to be financially stable before I have another kid. So I already work 3 jobs and Michael works 3 he uses the child support his dad sends him to help go toward our new baby and Briana. So we have a few checks coming in. And we have Micahel's step sister Alejandra's old cribs and stroller. For our new niña or niño and we are happy Micahel's family is the only side that knows and I know my mom will be unhappy about that but she is in Puerto Rico right now so yeah.

  I am happy to have a new baby coming and I cannot say it enough. But that's just an update thank you and I love you guys so much. :* I will post pictures when I have the baby ultrasounds etc. I love you guys so much.

I Am Sooo Dead

Gosh Another Mistake..

   So basically, I did another bad thing. As you all know me and Michael as of a few weeks ago were not together, and I was dating the boy I cheated with Hayden. And he was dating a very pretty girl Jacklyn.

   Me and Michael met up to swap off Briana, because he got his act together and stopped smoking. So basically during the hand off or whatever we went to the park, and joked, laughed, ate pizza, played with Briana, and we went back to my house (the house me and Michael bought together well our families) and we chilled, played with Briana some more, ate candy and watched TV. It just started off as friends hanging out, to holding hands.. then we kissed. I know I am horrible. And then made-out in my bedroom. (We all know how this ends) me and Michael had sex. (I use this word and i am sorry for those who are uncomfortable everyone does it) But yes we had sex. Not in the same room as Briana she has her own room and she was asleep. And this was the day after I made my post before this.

  I did tell Hayden, and he said "Hailee I can't be a girl who has sex whenever she has the chance I feel like I was used because you did the same thing with Michael and I can't be with a girl like you. I hope we can still be friends and pretend the last few months never happened." I couldn't argue he was right, every opportunity I got to have sex with Hayden or Michael I got it. It is horrible. I am a terrible person.

  And obviously Michael told Jacklyn we had sex, and obviously she now dislikes me more than before. So now she wants to fight me but I am more mature than her. I can't fight I have a daughter and I wanna set better examples for my daughter, I want my daughter to be better then me in life and make better choices. Also me and Michael are together again, and we promised to NOT cheat with anybody and to get serious in our relationship and to be faithful. 

  So yeah Me and Michael are living together again and I honestly could NOT be any happier. 

#BoldBrave

#BoldBrave 

    I got this idea from this boy named Cain. He does this video(s) on why he is bold and brave. He is #BoldBrave because in 7th grade he told everybody he gay. That's amazing. (I am sorry if you are against gay people um I am not so yeah I am sorry) 

   I am #BoldBrave in high school I got pregnant and still made the best for my daughter. I am #BoldBrave because I managed to still qualify to be a graduate in 2 years. I am #BoldBrave because I work 3 jobs and moved out my moms house to live on my own and take care of my daughter. I am #BoldBrave because I told the love of my life for 6 years that I cheated on him. I am #BoldBrave because I started a blog to share my life with people and it became popular pretty fast. <3.

  So now email me why you guys are #BoldBrave. I really wanna know. So let's hear it, Follow me, share me, and keep viewing. Thankyou guys I love you guys alot.  

Momma Bear and Daughter Bear

Mommy and Me

   My mom and I are talking we resolved things halfway over the phone. I have to wait till she gets home from Puerto Rico with my family. We were fighting for over 2 months because I wanted my daughter Briana to see her real grand father. So I am not gonna go live with her and I will explain why.

   I decided I am not gonna go live my stepdad mom and sister. Because it's time for me to grow up. When my mom got pregnant with me in highschool my abuelita didn't let her live in the house she had to go stay with my dad. When they broke up she lived with my tia. Until she met my stepdad. Nothing was handed to my mom. So why should things be handed to me?

  I now work 3 jobs and have my OWN house. That I helped pay for. Yes my daughter's real father and his family helped out as well as my family when we originally bought it. But that was the last thing I wanted handed to me. I made the decision to grow up to early and here are the consequences. 

  I work 3 jobs now. McDonald's, Pizza Hut and Ulta Cosmetics. I pay my OWN bills. I buy the clothes for my daughter and me. Yes her dad helps me out with the needs for OUR daughter Briana. So thankyou it just had me thinking.