SO Sad.

Words Cannot Explain How I Feel Right Now.....

 Basically, it was another "joke" played by Cisly. I am going to tell you guys the story cause I shared the rest so why not this?

   Okay so after Michael ignored me in the hallway he went with Cisly and all of them and they left I guess to smoke weed or go to the hookah lounge or something but the fact of the matter is they left. Well I thought he went with the guys but no he went with Cisly her cousin and this black kid ( not tryna be racist or nothing sorry if I offend anybody I love all races <3 ) and this other mexican boy and one of Cisly's cousin's hood rat friend ( I call him Pablo El Taco ) so Michael left and gave Cisly his phone to hold while he went and did something. She wanted to use it to take pictures ( Lie ) so he unlocked for her. She texted me all that stuff posing as Michael and then she deleted the messages. I guess when they left the hookah lounge or wherever the hell ( excuse me language ) they went she gave him back his phone ( while I was at home all thinking it was him.)

   So today at 3rd period Michael came up to me and asked me why I am ignoring him?. I told him "WTF dude yesterday you broke up with me while you were out and ignored me yesterday when I tried talking to you at school. And I tried texting you and calling you and you broke up with me. That is why I am ignoring you." He told me "no he didn't he didn't have his phone  yesterday; he gave his phone to Cisly and her cousin so they can take "pictures". I said "Well they texted me that stuff then. Why were you hanging out with her anyways?" He told me "It was originally supposed to only be him and his friends but they went to go smoke weed so we went to somewhere else I don't member the name though. And I am not just saying that I was not with Cisly like that I was with that boy the whole time they had my phone." I told him "I don't like her and you were dating her and I don't like it when you hang out with her alone cause I feel like she is trying to replace me and sometimes I feel like it's working." he told me "Well it is not ever gonna happen I am the only girl he wants and loves and that Cisly is just a friend. ( That pissed me off. How is he gonna still be friends with that bitch ( excuse my language ) after she did that to us. ) 

   The rest of that day we didn't talk cause I still kinda felt like he was being a little bit shady. So I avoided him. I do not know if we are dating cause I haven't replied to none of the text messages from him and I don't plan too for a little while I need space and time. Cause I don not appreciate him hanging out with his ex. Cause if I did that he would be all mad and start a fight with him. ( He isn't somebody we should bring up at the moment I am glad he is in the past. )

   So when I said words can't explain how I feel right now, I meant I don't know if I am mad that Cisly did that to us, happy that it is not true, sad cause he isn't showing me he even cares, pissed cause he was hanging out with Cisly. I just don't know the list goes on. I feel like all the emotions are jumbling through my head it is hard. I am confused. Confused on why this happened, why they did that, why he doesn't care, why they harass me, why they bully me, why they can't just let me be happy, why cant they leave us alone?

Bye I guess.